you don’t choose your attachment style! It’s a mix of natural temperament and how you learned to reach for protection, safety & love based on your unique lived experience & family/environmental patterns.
yes, people can change and grow from any insecure attachment into secure attachment - however that takes time, energy & money - different people have different access to that
AND people have the misinterpretation that secure attachment means you never have emotional behavior or that you’re perfectly emotionally calm & perfect - Naur
I’m the coach to work with if you’re ready to lay the inner foundation for your business. If you’re a therapist, coach or healer who has hit 6 figures…yet it feels unsustainable.
From the outside looking in - you’re doing it! Money & clients are flowing in. You’ve got a team supporting you.But from the inside looking out - you’re feeling like it could just slip through your fingers cuz you’re not sure your nervous system can *truly* hold it all
there’s a shame purge rn. a roar from the most wounded parts of us demanding they be seen too.
this opposite Algol, aka Medusa. she didn’t choose the snake hair & turning men into stone life. She ended up like that in response to survive after being violated & traumatized. (Pallas Athena choose for her…that’s a whole story)
maybe I’m all smiley thru it all, cuz I’m a natal Scorpio moon who found her resilience at the bottom of the pit. (Cue Parks & Rec Andy Dwyer’s song about the Pit)
Saturn squaring the Eclipse is slowing us the fucking down. Pause or life will do it for you.
1. Taking a moment to check in with where you’re at & find safety in your body (the Moon is connected to body, subconscious, our physical circumstance)
2. Stepping into the void, divine darkness (hello 🌚dark skies)
3. Renewing, cleansing, offering yourself (@chaninicholas says The moon is renewing itself, So can you)
4. Moving deeper into the void & allowing a new Identity to emerge (Aries is where the sun exalts aka LOVES to be…this is all about confidence in who you are🔥☀️)
Plot Twist: the new moon phase isn’t the best time to set intentions; rather it’s when the moon begins to gain light
the new moon apexes at ~1:25am CST (2:25am EST & 11:25pm PST). When the moon is renewing, the sky is completely dark. think of a void space 🖤⚫️🖤
it’s best to let yourself sit in the darkness & renew. (the new moon phase is often connected to the bleeding part of the cycle - think of the nurturing, care & rest that most people desire during this time)
Today, I received coaching, recorded 2 podcast episodes + my calls in the afternoon are cancelled & getting rescheduled 😌 Hey Siri, play ‘It’s a Vibe by 2 Chainz’
Find what feels yum for YOU - north node’s in Venusian Taurus - with NN & Uranus co-present - listening to your body may come with shocks, awakening & increase
Thru doing this, your nervous system may receive a moment of soothing, downregulation
when you feel like you’re regressing…are you open to trusting that this is a part of the process?
it's been a v Retrograde heavy start to 2022
as of today, Feb 4, 2022 - there are no planets in retrograde until April 28, 2022!
we're still in the Shadow period for Mercury + Venus - so as you move forward freely, integrate the lessons of the past!
So here's what I know for sure: you’re not in place you used to be in. period. full stop.
you’re not back in time even if your body feels like that
(Trauma-Informed Note: Sometimes, if one is feeling super stuck in the past, unable to move on, having flash backs that are debilitating -there may be a history of a strong emotional event, emotional charge and/or trauma)
Today there’s a full moon in Virgo. It’s lighting up my 12th house, so I felt inspired to write this:
10 Practices for when the Full Moon happens in your 12th House:
invoke energy work/support with the topic of hidden enemies, people who secretly wish you harm. anchor into safety, visualize health boundaries, pray for divine protection. visualize all energy that’s not yours being sent to Source for recycling. 🧿
awareness & energy work around patterns of self-sabotage/undoing. bouncing off of #1, what are the ways where you secretly wish yourself harm, if there are any? are there any parts of you resisting growth, success, the path you’re moving on?
shift your energy to the awake awareness that’s already present in the background of your awareness.
spiritual awakening is not about traveling to Bali, kundalini, 5D is better than 3D, starseeds, conspiracy theories, twin flames, ayahuasca, blah blah blah 🙄🙄
spiritual awakening is about developing a relationship with awake awareness. it's about letting go, surrendering your need to know, and simply being.
spiritual awakening is being awake to the present moment.
it's wild how something as simple as "being" isn't easy. it brings up a lot of our shit -
Woohooo! Mercury stations direct today around 6:50pm CT (7:50 ET/4:50 PT)
It’s time to communicate and move forward on the things you’ve been pondering over these last 3 weeks.
Over here in Houston, I’m watching the news like…
News: boil warning will likely last into the weekend. water pressure and quality should be back to normal early next week.
me, an astrologer: so you’re telling mercury (day to day life, transport) is moving direct in Aquarius (the water bearer aka one who carries water) this weekend?!?! mhhhm, mhhhm, of course!
#AstrologyTOO real
Lisa Stardust, an astrologer based in NYC, coined the term ‘Mercury Retro-shade’ - for that period of time right before and after a mercury sips gatorade
She warns “the retro-shade period is the wonkiest time of the retrograde" - this is where we dot the I’s, line the T’s, communicate and stand by our new boundaries, do what we’ve pondered about, take tangible steps towards our destination.
Uranus in Taurus is teaching us that our bodies are a portal to the universe. (2018-2026) 🌌💫 Today is Friday, ruled by Venus. Taurus is ruled by Venus. Friday is named after Frejya, a Norse Goddess of love, beauty, and fertility. 🌺 Here's your invitation to get out of your head and into your body. find what feels yummy, whether that's • the simple pleasure of breathing deep, • asking a loved one to massage your neck, • standing up at your desk to stretch as you wrap up the workweek • pausing to drink water
Aquarius ruled by Saturn, our slowest moving visible to the naked eye planet - slow and steady. integrity. This time doing things differently. What do you believe is possible if you do the work (Saturn) and faith unfolds the rest (Jupiter)? 🪐 Toggling between ‘expansion’ and ‘contraction’ as we build off the great conjunction in December. (Jupiter conjunct Saturn at 0 degrees of Aquarius, seen on the news as the ‘Christmas Star’) — That Full Moon was a culmination of the old chapter that is starting a new cycle of what’s possible - spotlighting the power of the people. Jupiter Cazimi - new cycle, new beliefs, beginnings, endings, vision, ambition, gratitude, expansion
here are elemental + simple New Years rituals for ya: 🔥 fire: grab a candle, toothpick & lighter - carve words/symbols you’re calling in, take a deep breath, light it up ✨ 🌊 water: grab a sticky note/small paper, write down your intentions, place a glass on it & pour water. speak your intention into water, take a deep breath, and drink it! (option to drink it tomorrow morning) 🌏 earth: speak your intention into your food tonight, and eat it knowing you’re receiving the magic. (a lot of New Year traditions are earthy, Capricorn szn! black eye peas, greens, grapes - whatever feels yummy to you!)
a friend asked me a Q, I answered ✍🏽 Q: Neha what’s this great conjunction everyone’s talking about?? it’s a whole thing I think A: yes, yes it is It’s a reset A 200 year Air ruled chapter is opening - think about how sand dunes change by the wind over time (Visual inspired by Astrologer Kelly Surtees, The Astrology Podcast) breezy, effortless, subtle yet undeniable Now at the same time, there’s a 3-year chapter opening-up This one comes in heavy-handed AND skeptically optimistic Saturn + Jupiter in Aquarius — it’s truly time to do things differently Aquarius is a fixed sign, taking its time building connections
Receiving is something I continue to learn about & lean into. We’ve got to expand our capacity to hold our human experience & the full spectrum of feelings we feel. Grief, Joy, Anger, Pleasure, Fear, Love, all of the above. Practicing awareness so we can recognize when we are experiencing our desires. Sometimes we’re so attached to our old stories, we don’t even realize things have changed. Sometimes we’re so attached to our desires coming in a certain form, that we don’t notice when the essence + function of what we want is being fulfilled. Or we’ll get a compliment and immediately deflect. These are ways we stop ourselves from receiving.
when we lean in, breathe, feel into our body we can feel the bodily sensation beyond the emotion the butterflies you feel in stomach - your body checking in like - “you good? should we digest...or not? lmk.” - reducing blood flow, giving you the tingly, fluttering sensation in your stomach be the neutral observer inhale, exhale I notice my shoulders tense up, they feel glued to my ears, I hear the story in my head “ThisIsSoStressfulThisIsStressfulDidImentionStress!!” inhale, exhale, taking a moment during work to stand, breath, intentionally squeeze my shoulders and exhale as I move my shoulders back and down, stand up tall, inviting ease to flow in, as she does Checking the inbox of my body, does she have a message waiting me? Inhale, exhale, listening, meditating, just for a moment at my desk, creating space, building a relationship with my body
